The most torturous part is I have had a ton of resume work so I thought I would try a new schedule for myself and get up around 5:55-6:00 am everyday that I put into place last week. Either for some peace and quiet before the day starts, a nice cup of coffee, play on the computer, or get some work done before the rat race begins.
Now, most moms reading this are probably thinking, suck it up I get up each day at that time. However, my plead of pity is this. I take my "happy pills" a.k.a. my mood stabilizers at night that I have to take or else I would be a complete WHACK JOB. They keep me mentally stable. I haven't had a depressive episode since the boys were born when I had Post Partum and this medicine keeps my moods stable. Lets me live a happy mentally healthy life (now I am not saying I don't get pissy or irrational because I do, everyone does). My point is that people with mood disorders, if they are going to live a happy productive life they need sleep, workouts and balance. If you have a mood disorder you know this 100%! Unfortunately my fabulous little pills that keep me stable also make me a SLUG in the morning. I move like one, I look like something from the war in the morning and I feel like I have cob webs in my brain. This is normal until I have about a half hour to adjust. So, this early morning before 6am nonsense has BEEN torture! Pure torture! I think Christian is going to be our morning bird, he gets that from Ken. Nicolas is going to be our morning sleeper like me. He loves sleeping if his brother would let him.
As soon as I hear those little sweet voices at 5 am, I do say a prayer..."Lord reduce the meanness in me keep me stable, happy and help me SUCK IT UP"!! Ken, normally is great at getting up with them is sick of this early business too. This morning I got up with the kids and he must of just woke up and I heard him talking to himself out of habit , "SHHHH, go back to sleep, its not morning"!!! I don't know who the heck he was talking to? He has done this a few times lately and I can't help but laugh because I know he is doing it half in his sleep, half out of habit of what we say to them each day.
He came home Friday night and said, "I ordered a "light" alarm for the boys today".
Me: Why would you do that- no alarm for the boys are you crazy".
Ken: No, its a light alarm, the light goes on for them at a certain time so they know only then can they get up!!!
Me: Ohhhh, very cool but it better not wake them up more or it is going in the T.R.A.S.H !!
Lack of sleep isn't the best for my mental well-being hence mommy's little naps that give me my perk up with no guilt and help me catch up. When you have twins you get POUNDED in the morning with questions and all the same questions. All my foggy brain can mutter out is ""Yep", "Please wait" "No" "Quiet Voices". The questions that pound us every single morning are:
- Is it morning yet?
- Mommy can you change me?
- Mommy can I wear my batman /superman PJ's
- What are we doing today?
- Can I have something to drink?
- Mom help me go to the bathroom?
- Whats for breakfast?
- Mom where is my "certain" toy?
- I left my stuff animal upstairs, mom can you get it?
- Do we have school today?
- Is Daddy staying home today?
- MOMMMMMM HELLLPP (loudly...oh so loudly).